Sunshine Garden Juno

I love my life! For the first time in a while I love my life. Due to the nature of my job I spend a lot of time around people with disabilities. Tonight I met a married couple that are both in wheelchairs. They have a hard time speaking and have a hard time feeding their selves. They smile all of the time. They love life and they love each other. They showed me so much kindness tonight by inviting me into their homes. It is hard to find a time in which they do not smile. I am currently working with a pair of guys that have some issues with short-term memory loss. They want so badly to settle down and have families of their own. They want so badly to be loved and accepted by their peers. They were both in a car accident that brought on this issue. It is kind of like the Drew Barrymore movie 50 First Dates every day. But deep within this disability they want to move on but they have this anchor attached to them while they try to tread water. They have awareness but cannot move on. Today I went to the beach and saw a cool family and wanted so badly for him to be able to have this one day.

Most of my life I have felt like I deserved to be married or have a healthy child or live the American dream and buy my first home. I have even had days where I was upset with God because I have none of this. Today I realize that I have none of this because God wants me to come to His Throne and bow down in thankful worship when life is not done by my will. When life looks like a Sunshine Garden Juno.
As a man society has ingrained in us that we are what we do. That our profession defines our manhood. In today’s world staying in a profession for thirty years is long and gone. Even if the employee was loyal employers are not. How does a man go about being a man if they are changing jobs so often? If our identity is tied to this our world is in trouble.
In my head this is the nakedness that Adam felt. With many men finding their identity on shaky ground, thus you have so many men running and not really knowing who they are. Today our world says that if you get a woman pregnant you are a man or if you make a lot of money you are a man. Then why do you have boys still living with their mothers and having the girlfriends move in? Married men who struggle with their own identity and run off after being together for years. Swearing before God and men they “Till death do we Part”. In my opinion this is just a huge identity crisis. I feel that because most men do not feel equipped they run. They do not finish what they start when things get hard. I want to change this.
I want to change men’s hearts and help to equip those who feel ill equipped. Or at least stand by their side during the journey. My housemates and I have a huge heart for this mission.